New Delhi, Nov 10 (IANS) Reflecting on the events following the Congress-led United Progressive Alliance's (UPA) victory in the 2004 general elections, Congress Parliamentary Party (CPP) Chairperson Sonia Gandhi has recalled the emotional turmoil she experienced while deciding against taking up the post of Prime Minister, describing the conflict between her sense of duty towards the party, her personal reservations and the absence of her late husband Rajiv Gandhi's guidance.